Things are rolling along. Trying to keep an eye on our budget but with all these weddings coming up and the uncertainty of The Impulsive purchase I feel like giving up for a while. I cant get on a smooth routine with the finances and it stresses me out just trying.
Anyways- BB is doing really well with his job. He loves it and the team seems to love him. I think this will be his forever job.
My job is going really well too. I was getting a bit lazy at it and my boss kind of called me to task about 2 weeks ago by telling me to tighten up and then he also heaped a bunch of additional projects on me- the added responsibility and the sudden clearer understanding of what my boss expects of me made me step up in a way even I didn't think I was capable of.
I killed myself to learn how to do long processes in a shorter amount of time, learn how to do things I had never done before, and to finish my work with a polish that made the work appear that my boss did it himself. He was impressed with my sudden "abilities" and so was I! So I have kind of become second in command in the office as my boss has been leaning on me more and more- fine with me- job security.
Sometimes BB brings up the kid conversation. He wants to maybe make a baby this summer. I think I am finally ready to actually go through labor and make the sacrifices to raise a kid- but I feel like my job is finally turning into a career. My boss is being prepped to be a president of his department- and that would put me in a position to also move in a power type of role- and none of the jobs I have my eye on could be done by working part time.
I don't know. I generally get burned out on jobs around the 2 yr mark. I'm coming up on the 1 years mark- I should just wait another year and then I will probably feel ready to give up the working thing for the baby thing.
I need to stop worrying about the big picture and focus on the smaller stuff. Its the day to day finances that feels out of control. I need to get into a rhythm..even with all these weddings coming up.
Job-Baby?
March 27th, 2010 at 12:24 am
March 27th, 2010 at 03:23 am 1269660196
I love my son very much and would jump in front of a bus for him, but that doesn't mean it isn't frustrating and difficult, and that I'm not mad that I can't be what I want to be out in the world.
March 27th, 2010 at 03:32 am 1269660735
I suppose, the longer you stay at your job, the harder the whole thing will be.
March 27th, 2010 at 12:29 pm 1269692969
I am old enough to be your mother and maybe things have changed, but I felt incredible pressure to work after having children as if it was some sort of betrayal to stay home and parent. I hope you younger women don't feel that same pressure. I really hope things have changed and you can make choices that feel right to you.
March 27th, 2010 at 01:08 pm 1269695324
Even if you are 100% content, you will feel tons of pressure to change your lifestyle. Just tune it out - the best advice I can give.